Twenty Five is the New Fifty Two

Well, I’m not entirely sure how P. Diddy feels, but the guy has enough money to hire somebody to give him a piggy back ride everywhere, so I am assuming he feels pretty stellar.

I feel pretty good today. I decided instead of taking my usual nap after work that I was going to stay awake and take a run. Well, my run turned into a three hour run/walk all over the city. It felt really, really good!

I just sent a friend of mine the following text:
“I decided I’m done being depressed. Let’s hang out.”

Yay me.

No granola bar bingers today.

6:45am 
1- 25MG Topiramate tablet
1- Lisinopril Tablet
Hot green Tea w/Lemon
0 Calories

7:15am
1- 30MG Adderall XR Capsule 

I decided that I am going to take my Topiramate and Adderall separately to see if that helps. Basically, I feel as if they counteract each other because the Topiramate makes me disoriented and forgetful, and the Adderall is supposed to help me concentrate. My doctor said one shouldn’t effect the other, but I feel as if they do.

But hey, what do I know? I dropped out of art school…

I went to a doctor’s appointment yesterday where they took my height and weight. I admittedly have not had the best diet and execise regime in the past month or so, but I was kind of upset when she told me I was at 138 lbs. That’s more then ten pounds over what I was merely two months ago! 

I really need to get back to eating well. I was so strict with my meals, and then I just kind of fell off-track somewhere a long the line.

- no soda (not even diet)
- no sneaking cheese
- less baked goods
- NO DRINKING
- no more pizza every night.

My blood pressure was also at a scary 140/90, which is not good in the least bit. Due to that, I had to schedule MORE doctor’s appointments.

It’s a wonderful life! Argh. 

…and Crossfit.

I looked into going to a trail session this Sunday, but unfortunately my ride situation didn’t work out and I had to miss it.

For those of you who are unaware what Crossfit is, it is kind of a fitness “lifestyle” that revolves around actual fitness and healthy body function versus focusing on toning/gaining musicle mass for cosmetic purposes.

It looks pretty brutal, but a lot of the success stories that I have read are pretty inspiring.

Crossfit also promotes following the Paleo and/or Zone Diet. Paleo basically boils down to, “if a caveman ate it, you can eat it.” This kind of eating makes sense, because you are eating natural, whole foods that your body can break down and digest easily.

However, it would very extremely difficult to eat Paleo and follow a Vegan or Vegetarian diet. Or whatever diet I happen to be on, considering it consists of mainly Skittles, Avocados and Soma.

I just really need a new challenge…

• I’m 5’8”
• Last time I weighed myself, I was at 126 with my clothes and shoes on, and that was… over a month ago.
• I don’t really work out. I’d like to change that.
• I’m mostly vegan, but I will eat dairy here and there, and I love candy (a lot of it contains gelatin, which has fish)
• I have terrible eating habits
• I rarely drink because of the plethora of meds I’m on to treat neurological problems.
• My cholesterol and blood pressure is off the charts.

Anything else? Ask.

I need to find strength to not eat like crap, and to actually exercise. Help?

I have been really bad at recording what I have been eating lately because I hate to admit that I have had terrible eating habits all week. Lets sum-up last night, shall we?

I had dinner with a friend at a nicer restaurant/bar and I get a nice, healthy grilled vegetable and spinach salad, with a water. Way to go, Leah!

Returned home at 10:45, and wanted sweets like no one’s business.

We have absolutely no desserts of any kind in our house for this reason, save for this box of brownie mix I brought home months ago. We almost never have eggs, but for some reason we did last night. I’ll give you one guess what happened…

yeah. I made those damn brownies (after eating a decent amount of the batter.) I didn’t eat any of the actual cooked brownies last night, which I guess was a plus. I did, however, eat a small bag of Fritos. Mmm, healthy salad with a brownie batter and frito chaser.

I woke up this morning and had a big chunk of those brownies for breakfast.

i then came to work and had a banana.

It was an employees birthday, and they brought bagels. What the hell? I’ll have one of those, too!

Pretty sure I consumed my entire day’s worth of calories before 10am.

It is now 1:22pm, and I haven’t had anything else to eat because I literally feel yucky. Baaaad choices were made in the past twenty four hours, folks.

I am sincerely hoping that those brownies disappeared somehow before I get home from work.