Twenty Five is the New Fifty Two

I ate three granola bars this morning because I am depressed and eating is the only thing that gives me feelings these days.

I never knew you could simultaneously feel “full” and “empty.”

What I am doing with my life? Ugh.

Upon shutting down my computer and leaving work yesterday, I headed off to pick up my little brother from my parent’s house.

They really should have a sign hanging above the door that reads, “Abandon Your Healthy Eating Habits, All Ye Who Enter Here.”

Not only is my folks’ home literally bursting with food (I counted thirty one boxes of cereal in the pantry once, and only four people lived there at the time) but the majority of it is snack stuff. Pita chips, crackers, cheese curds, packaged cookies… a dieter’s nightmare.

Oh, and she ordered my favorite pizza. Veggie with feta cheese on it. I was afraid this was going to happen! I tried to resist, but I ended up having two and a half pieces. I opt-ed to eat the skinner slices, and fed the thick crust to my dogs.

6:15pm
Veggie and Feta Cheese Pizza- 2 1/2 Slices
550 Calories; 180 Fat Calories (this is approx, as I am pulling info off of the net and not from the actual pizza place) 

Just in case you’re wondering, two out of my three dogs are overweight.

My brother and I headed out to the baseball game, where we witnessed the Brewers embarrass themselves for a couple innings. Well, Escobar did a great job stealing a few bases, but that’s about it.

We decided to go wander downtown instead. So what did I do? Take him to Brick 3, of course! My brother is a teenage boy, so he eats like none other. I wanted him to try the mac and cheese pizza. I wasn’t especially hungry, but he wanted me to eat, so I got a slice of Caprese.

9:15pm
Brick 3 Caprese Pizza
Lets shoot for around 500 calories, and maybe 180 Fat Calories? I don’t know… 

Remember when I said I was going to try to eat healthy? Let’s ask the three and a half pieces of pizza about that.

Fail.

Dropped my brother off at his house, and went home. Pretty much passed out because I was one sleepy bear!

11:45pm
2- 25MG Topiramate tablet

9.20.10 Total- 1,620 Calories; 590 Fat Calories.

Meh, could have been worse. But for all I know, I could be way off with my pizza guesstimations.

Back in the swing of things this week. Being extra-careful to eat well, so remind me that I said this, ok?

7am-
1- 25MG Topiramate tablet
1- 30MG Adderall XR Capsule

Was a bit hectic getting ready today. I went to a late showing of The Town last night and ended up going to sleep later than I wanted to. I was also distracted by the fact that my face decided to spontaneously open a zit factory overnight.

8:30am-
Yogi SkinDetox Tea
0 Calories
Apple slices
70 Calories

Had a lot to work on today, and got some very good news. Spent my lunch hour running an errand.

1:00pm(ish)-
1/4c Mediterranean Blend Trail Mix
(Raisins, Walnuts, Figs, Apricots, Almonds, Pistachios, Cherries, Blueberries and Hazelnuts)
140 Calories; 70 Fat Calories

1:30pm-
Coconut Cream Pie Larabar
220 Calories; 90 Fat Calories

3:30pm-
Tazo Green Tea w/Ginger
0 Calories

4:45pm-
1/4c Mediterranean Blend Trail Mix
(Raisins, Walnuts, Figs, Apricots, Almonds, Pistachios, Cherries, Blueberries and Hazelnuts)
140 Calories; 70 Fat Calories

Total at 5:00pm- 570 Calories; 230 Fat Calories

Taking my little brother to the Brewers game tonight. I am not feeling well, so I doubt I’ll mow down on stadium food.

I was a big waste of space yesterday.

I went to sleep at around 5am, woke up at 2pm, and didn’t move from the couch all day.

Save to make food.

I won’t even tell you what I ate, but I can guarantee it was enough to keep a baby hippo satiated for months.

I was being a big baby because of my tattoo. It is very hard to sit up because it burns so bad! Whaaaa.

As for saturday, I was a pretty good eater. Can’t really recall specifics, but I know I brought one of my protein shakes out to the clubs with me.

Yeah, I was that girl.

“Yo, what the hell you be drankin?”
“It’s a dairy-free, gluten-free, sustained energry protein shake”
“Like muscle milk?”
“No, it’s nothing like muscle milk”
“Hey yo, dis girl be drankin muscle milk!”

yeah…
I also had a piece of cheese pizza around 3am. NBD.

ANYWAYS, lets get started on today, shall we?

7am-
1- 500MG Metronidazole tablet
1- 25MG Topiramate tablet
1- 30MG Adderall XR Capsule
2- 350MG Echinacea Capsules
1- 1000MG Vitamin C Tablet

10:00am
1/4c Almonds w/ dried Cranberries 
190 Calories; 150 Fat Calories

Total at 12:04pm: 190 Calories; 150 Fat Calories

I am going in next saturday to get the “groom” sugar skull done on my other side, so I need to keep the tummy looking nice. It’s looking like crap right now, but I am going to chalk that up to major bloating due to the entire pizza I ate yesterday. (whoops!)

6:30am
1- 500MG Metronidazole tablet
1- 25MG Topiramate tablet
1- 30MG Adderall XR Capsule
2- 350MG Echinacea Capsules
1- 1000MG Vitamin C Tablet

8:15am
1 Cup Green Tea w/Lemon
0 Calories

12:45pm
1/2 Avocado w/salt and Pepper
140 Calories; 110 Fat Calories
Lipton Diet Green Tea w/Honey powder added to ice water
0 Calories

Daily total at 1:16pm: 140 Calories; 110 Fat Calories

I have absolutely no desire to eat anything today. In fact, the only reason I ate that Avocado is because I haphazardly cut it up while I was talking to my co-worker in the kitchen at work. I make a point not to eat when I am not hungry, so I am a bit annoyed with myself for eating that dumb Avocado. It didn’t even taste good. However I lectured the man across the hall on how he should be eating a serving of almonds everyday, and he just came in here to tell me he choked down his nuts (ha), so now I feel like I need to.

Remember a few days ago when I mentioned that the Metronidazole sometimes left a “metallic” taste in my mouth? Well, that has been lacing everything that has been touching my lips. Who wants to eat anything when it tastes as if it has been finished with a dash of iron? I don’t even want pizza right now.

Yeah. Not even pizza sounds good. I must be sick.

4:00pm
1/2 Chocolate Duet Cookie w/Walnuts
225 Calories; 110 Fat Calories
1- 15mg Adderall Tablet
Cup of Hot Green Tea w/Lemon
0 Calories 

(So insanely tired, and I think I am getting sick. This is reinforced by the fact that my coworker across the hall is also sick.)

I get home an immediately hit the couch and pass out for an hour. I am awoken by the fact that my phone keeps ringing off the hook, so I give up on napping and return some of the phone calls.

I have kind of a complex about my arms, so I do a few different exercises with 5lb dumbells while I play a song (about 4-5 minutes) every day. I was so tired that I found this rather difficult. Even showering was a chore.

My room mate, Renee, came home at about 9pm, and we went to dinner at the Cheesecake Factory. It was nice to finally connect with her, because we rarely see each other these days. Dining out makes me nervous because I hate not being able to find calorie counts for things! Unfortunately for me, I found it online this morning:

9:45pm- Cheesecake Factory
2 Pieces of Dark (Wheat?) Bread
Guacamole and Tortilla Chips (shared with Renee)Fresh Vegetable Salad w/Pomegranate Dressing on the side 
390 calories 

Dinner was really enjoyable. Its funny that we live together, but really haven’t seen one another for weeks now. I love Renee to death.

Arrived home after stopping at Walgreens to pick up Emergen-C and Snackin’ Flax, and was entirely ready to go to bed.

11:00pm
1- 500MG Metronidazole tablet
2- 25MG Topiramate tablet
2- 350MG Echinecea Capsules
1- 1000MG Vitamin C Tablet 

Then my phone rang, and Peter wanted to catch up for an hour. I was OK with that, because I haven’t talked to him in awhile. He had a really entertaining story to share about a date he went on that resulted in a girl making him take her through the drive-thru at McDondals for dinner.

“I don’t mean to sound judgemental, Leah, but she ordered two Filet-o-Fish. TWO of them!”

How fitting. I had nightmares about fish sandwiches that night.